Kids

The kids are back.
It's incredible how someone that completely disappears from your life, comes back only to make a mess of everything. Personally, I find it completely normal, to just disappear and disconnect from people just like that. I've done it myself many times. It's just that, most of the times it was by choice, and therefore I didnt quite understand the effect of it. Only this time, it was not my choice, and therefore I found it quite hard to deal with it, and with the loss of this person form my life. Eventlyally though, I got over it ,and moved on with my life. And now this single person, that made my life hell for more than 2 months, came back only to make things worse.

This event, was what got me into thinking. Are we too hard on people sometimes? Do we not fully understand that it's people that we're dealing with? Not toys?

In the past, I found it so easy, everything was kind of Black and White for me. It still is, on some cases. Trust me, life in black and white is SO easy. It's just, that, when you're dealing with peole, things are not black and white, and things become SO much complicated. Sometimes I wish that we ,humans didn't have the gene for sociability or whatever you like to call it, the need to be sociable human beings with the NEED for social lives and friends and people to care about us. Life would be so much easier and efficient. For example, this past week, I've lost complete contact with the world, since school's closed and my parents aren't home and I haven't seen any of my friends for quite some time. And honestly I love it. But I know that if I spend one more week with no contact with no single person, I will go insane...

I am ranting again.
Goodnight
x

step outside, summertime's in bloom

I wish I was a talented Musician. It seems that everyone these days has got a Label on them. Everyone does. We got them all figured out right?
I always wondered what my label is...I guess I'm still trying to figure that out...I haven't found the answer yet.
I mean in high school we got everyone figured out right? It's the smart kids, who like to stay in class and talk about the latest fantasy book they read, or about the latest test we got back. Then it's the musicians who like to hang out at the toilets or like to hide behind trees to smoke ,then it's the groupies that always follow them, then it's the popular kids that usually like to hang out in the middle of the school porch or around the cafeteria, then we have the senior kids that usually like to hang out around their cars ,and we have us...I guess we're not really anything, I don't think me and my friends have labels. The thing is that me and my friends we're all so different. We have D, the beauty queen that is the most experienced when it comes to relationships, we have E that is the good student that should hang out with the smart kids but strangely enough she doesnt, then we have M who's the gossiper and the heart and soul of fun,then it's A who is kind of the follower and finally we have N the neurotic one that secretly each one of us would secretly want to get rid of...These are my best friends. And we're all so fucking different, so how on earth did we get stuck with each other? I often ask my self this question... You can't expect me to love them all, obviously i can't stand N, the neurotic one and sometimes D and A get on my nerves...
So my question is, how does everyone else sees us? What is OUR label? How can we have a label if we are all so different. And even if we have labels within us, what is my label? Why dont I have one? And what if i do , what is it?

So is it just me , or does everyone has a problem categorizing him/herself?


*school starts in 3 days and I cant fucking wait. I missed school suprisingly enough...

Good Girls Go Bad

(my favorite Good Girls Gone Bad- Pixie Geldof and Alice Dellal)

So...the new school year starts in exactly one week from now. Everyone's busy buying the newest designer handbag to bring to school. Yeah that's how it's done in the most expensive private school in the country. It's sad to think that I'm a part of that sad upper-class society.

The truth is that I wasn't exactly raised into this world. My parents are very well respected members of the society and my dad is even a popular figure in the media. My father has very good connections in our society and he is also a very close friend of many key figures of the state. However, my father is nothing but a poor boy from the hood, and the only thing that got him where he is now, is his brain. The same goes for me. I was raised in a very humble household. I went to a state school and was an excellent student. Then I pass my exams and got into the most prestigious school of the country and that's how it all started with the posh society and all. I don't quite like it and I secretly hate all the rich-brat kids, even though my best friends are some of them. To be quite frank my BEST friend was raised in this stupid brat society and she hates it as well.

It's funny how these circles move. Some of my good friends were even part of these circles until they got thrown out or decided to just leave them. These kids, they dont get to choose who their friends will be, or which school they'll go to ,or what they are going to wear or where they are going to hang out at. All of these choices are already made for them, they have no choice, and if they try to follow a different path, they are going to be criticized or considered as a shame for their family. It's true that within these circles people gossip. And that's what I like to do. I like to stay out of these circles and just watch and observe these weird human beings. It's just a fascinating world, don't you think?

A typical stereotype of a posh-brat-bitch : She is a straight A student, she can never exit her home without her Balenciaga/Dior/Prada/Mulberry handbag. She is a slut and that's a well known secret . She might me kind at heart but likes to play "bitch". She occasionally goes clubbing and gets drunk. She can never exit her home without her cigarettes. She pretends to be a virgin even though everyone knows that she lost her virginity at 14 with some random older -jock guy. She has her "circle" of BFFS that include the children of her parents' friends.

I know this might sound like a Gossip Girl rip-off but trust me, that's how it's done here.
But hey I'm just an outsider,observing and witting down everything I see or hear.
So stay tuned...
Here's to a New School Year!!!

ps. Just because I'm not a part of this world, doesn't mean that I am some sad school girl with no sense of fashion! I am very fashion-aware and like to consider myself as a stylish gal with Unique Style. xoxo

Goodnight and Go

Introductions are boring. They are not really my thing,however, when it comes to a brand new fresh start, i cant say no to that.

I'm a digital girl, searching for a little bit of magic in life and a little bit of spice. Randomness is my main characteristic. I like to wonder on in empty streets and take photographs of the world. I like to have my identity confidential as i wish to be completely honest and true with this blog.

My life as a teenager in a deserted place,wherever that might be ,is oddly enough all i could wish for. I have a great relationship with my parents, again not the typical stereotype of a teenager, and I love my crazy family.

I don't have many friends and my social life lacks, ALOT. I have my girls and we like to gossip about the "in" crowd. Some of them are even in this this crowd, but not me. I feel lucky enough to have them.

So here's to a brand new fresh start! Here's to a new confessions blog full of secrets and here's to a new school year!